Disaster #23

Picking up the pieces of this disaster
Keep chasing it around
It runs faster and faster
And faster and faster
Keep sucking the wind
From the stormy seas
I exhale new worlds but they mean nothing to me
Nothing to me no nothing to me

Stay awhile
       You say like a child
All the while I’m victim
        Of an ever fading smile

Stare at you with the lights in your face
It’s brilliant yet it seems like a waste
Never trust your perfect white teeth
They bite and they bite, bite and they bite
Rough me up
It’s how we get rich
All this happiness expunged
Time for a new stitch
It’s time for a new stitch

I keep running, I ran right passed her
I keep chasing a smile but it’s fading
faster and faster
             and faster and
                     faster and faster
                                 and faster and
                                         faster and faster and faster…

Lose yourself in this distraction
Watch it tumble from a minor infraction
It’s covered in blood and crawling toward you
Crawling and crawling and crawling to you
All this mystery lost in the patterns
The curtains close, you act like nothing matters
Get in your car and you drive away
Drive away you keep driving and driving
You can never get away never get away

 

Redux

How time stands still
When caught in a wave
Waiting for a hand to
Reach out and save you

That blackness evolves
When you realize
Destiny has finally
Screwed you

The hum of the engine
Ringing in your left ear
Sink to the bottom too quick
Too late to be switching gears

Mostly full of wrong decisions
No ink left for revisions
Don’t even think I can find a pen
This was only a matter of when

Wave bye to the bubbles
On their way to escape through
It makes you want to scream
But no one can hear you

Wrong turn on the right bridge
Water coming through the window
As you slip into the darkness
You realize you don’t want to go

Mostly full of wrong decisions
Got no ink left for revisions
Don’t even think I can find a pen
This was only a matter of when

Lived a life of bad decisions
Leaving all these small incisions
Never seemed to find the time
Find the remote and press rewind

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We Bleed Either Way

In joy or in pain
We bleed either way
Destined for greatness
Or left in a ditch
We live life anyway
I watch the sky split apart
It made no difference
Sun shone all the day
I saw your smile
Hiding in shadows
You carried on
Never swayed

Maybe it never really mattered
All these emotions so scattered
Our hearts and minds left tattered
Can’t say it makes much difference
Anyway

In joy or in pain
We suffer the day
With the clouds in our hearts
We forget who we are
And with all this against us
This short life before us
We carry on unafraid
With doom in our minds
The sun still peeks
Through the blinds
We never give way
We just bleed through the day
Shine through clouds of gray
Carry on anyway

With all this between us
How can we ever be true
This short life before us
Without meaning
The spirits that haunt us
Convening

How we wake in the morning
A new sun to warm us
Feel lost in the forest
How we sleep in the evening
The cold night surrounds us
Nightmares distort us
How heavy it weighs
Living life in this daze
We carry on anyway

Maybe it never really mattered
All these emotions so scattered
Our hearts and minds left tattered
Maybe it never matters
When our cold body splatters
Torn into tatters
Can’t say it makes much difference
Anyway

 

Any Crash You Can Walk Away From…

It’s not over
I still feel it
Like a blinding flash of light
I’m still reeling
It’s alive in my mind
On constant replay
Like a crash
Like a crashing wave

We’re on the freeway
We couldn’t stay the course
We couldn’t see the road
Before us anymore

And I’m still driving
I see it in your eyes
The damage
Yet to come
I see it your eyes
As you wave goodbye

   I want to stay
You’re still packing
A crescent moon
To guide you home

   I want to stay
Hear you laughing
The stars have left me
In the dark alone

The bumps in the road
Came too soon
No time to blame
Someone new
These blown out wheels
And roadside fires
Destined to leaves us
Broken and tired

But it’s not over
I still feel it
It’s in your eyes
As you wave goodbye
It’s in the wave
As it’s breaking
This life is ours still
Ours for the taking

 

We Should Build a Bomb

If I thought that we could rectify
Brilliant minds laying waste
Perhaps now we will vilify you
Put you in charge so we can cast our stones
Broken people with token hearts
To have the end we needed just to start

We should build a bomb
Put it in our home
Light the fuse
Run for cover
It’ll soon be over

Shine a light into your eyes
And curse you for your blindness
Take everything you give
Curse you for your kindness
We gave you the crown
We can take your head

Welfare and warfare
Better hold your tongue
Satellites wish us good night
Waving from your throne
We gave you the crown

We are all out here
We are all alone

The TV is a phantom
Haunting our every waking thought
It’s like a nightmarish dream
In which we’re forever caught
The TV is our mother
Never need another
Staring from the wall
With it’s bloodshot shot eye
If only it could feed and hold us
Instead of only pacify

If they thought they could vilify
Every humble heart
Put a knife in the hands of society
Blood dripping from their fingertips
An image stays much longer
Your name forever on their lips
A hatred lasts much longer
When born from a lie
It won’t take much to demonize you
We hardly even have to try

You know this work is easy
Barely lift a finger
That momentary feeling so uneasy
Don’t worry it won’t linger
We might love you today
Now watch as we start to sway
We grave you the crown
Heavy like gilded lead
We will bring you down
Off with your head

Disrepair

I’m starting to feel cold again
Cold and unfeeling
Unwanted again
Again and again and again

I was built right here
And I have spent
A hundred and a year
In disrepair

It cold and it’s wet
The wood will rot
Again I am caught
In the rain, cold and unfeeling again

The long lasting last bastion
The bright burning reaction
Gasoline on the pyre
You can still see the ash from the fire

Smoke fills my mind
The hazardous haze felt so dire
Now I just breathe in the powdered
Remnants of desire

Cold feels like stone
Grace of your hand
Unfeeling and numb
The turn of your back
The cold curve of your thumb

Cold feels like steel
A cool razor cuts through my
Skin like butter
The blood runs black
Over the buzzing hum

The world goes blacker

I’ve been wasted here
I have spent
A hundred and a year
In despair
I am wasting here
I will spend
A hundred and a year

Falling in the ocean

A hundred and a year
I will be right here

Ambient Light of a Forgotten Night

I try to catch shadows
Hold the light from your halo
Impermanence has me grasping
For anything real
Something to feel

I walk on the ceiling
Call your name when I’m dreaming
There’s a haze in my bedroom
I can still see your footprints
Fade in the distance

Voices sing from the trees
The choir brings me to my knees
I try to contain it
Can’t explain it

Feels ike the nucleus of creation
Like the promise of a new day
I hear a song in the distance
With force comes resistance
Is it a vision or fantasy

I lay awake
In the wake of your destruction
You wear the ambient light
Of a forgotten night

I lay awake
In the shadow you cast
Put your face in the darkness
Get a sense of the brilliance

There’s a lazy haze in your eyes
You wear the ambient light
Of a forgotten night
I lay awake
In your shadow

It’s the promise of a new day
Hear the song in the distance
With force comes resistance
Is it a vision or fantasy
Or just wishful thinking

 

Hit & Run

I turn the radio on
I’m just switching
From station to station

Too bad the static
Up in my attic
Is all I can hear

I’m endlessly drifting
On the airwaves
Endlessly adrift

My fingers wavering
Keep disappearing
Lost in the rift

The man on the radio
He’s stuck in the radio
Lost in reality

I’m just a wanderer
A poet, a killer
Battling duality

I keep staring into space
The stars will never
Disappoint us

The lights on the dashboard
Glowing intently
Asking me if I can trust

My own recollection

I put my foot on the gas
The wheels start to spin
In every direction

I turn the radio on
I’m just switching
From station to station

Too bad the static
Up in my attic
Is all I can hear

Reflection

The veins inside my hand
Feel like they’re pulling tight
They start to burn
With each word I write

My eyes inside my head
Pulling my eyelids tight
They start to burn
If I let in any light

And I wish that I could say
This was just any other day
But my blood has never
Spilled this way before
I watch in the mirror
As the last remaining
Pieces of me
Are no more

The bones inside my skin
Used to hold my flesh just right
But now it seems to hang
It’s really quite a sight

I wish that I could say
I felt any other way
But my head has never
Felt this fucking sore
I look to the past
As the last remaining
Pieces of me
Are no more

When the sun blinks out tonight
And sleep drags me deep
I’ll shed my skin
Between the sheets

When dark has surrounded us
And the shadows start to creep
I’ll spill my blood
While my devils sleep

I wish that I could say
I felt any other way
As I’m laying here
On this cold tile floor
I watch my reflection
As the last remaining
Pieces of me
Are no more

I wish that I could say
I felt any other way
As your headed out the door
I watch myself in your eyes
As the last remaining
Pieces of me
Are no more

 

End Title

Time is slipping
It means nothing
To me
I crash on the freeway
Crawl on the roadway
On my way
To you

Dawn greets me with teeth
The sun has a pulse
It’s weakening
I shield my eyes
The wind has edges
I’m breathing in the waves

Clouds seem to surround me
The monsters have found me
I’m jumping on the cracks
Of a world that is breaking

And I’m asking myself
What was it for

The blood on my hands
Getting hard to ignore
I keep asking myself
What was it for

How long have I been here
Waiting in the dark
Stuck here in limbo
Waiting for my next adventure

The theater gets darker
I hear the spinning of the projector
The images fly before me
Dancing on the screen

I climbed so many many trees
My face against the breeze
You were the only thing
That meant anything to me

Now I’m lost in darkness
Asking myself
What was it for

Time is slipping
It keeps creeping up
On me
I’m laughing in the wings
Of your picture show
Just waiting here
For you
To join me

Asking myself
How long will I be waiting for